god damnit why do I have to do this?
why do I feel it has to be me?
why do I need to go into other peoples' shit and fucking "be there" for them?
thats why people get pissed at me.
at least, some people did.
and now I dont have one, I have to find others to latch onto and try to fucking help all the time.
and in return for that I get fucking hugs and compliments or something
I guess it makes me feel special.
maybe I should just take him back cuz I'm always gonna be like this anyway, no matter if im with him or not.