its 10:40 P.M, do you know where your thoughts reside?

yes I know, seems like I was trying too hard to sound deep and artistic on that title. but I don't care. it came to me. I was just thinking. and then I realized that I didn't know what I was thinking, really, but I knew how I felt. And now I realize, that its hard to find words for feelings, as there are more feelings than words. Some would call this "mixed feelings" and others, "marmalade", but I think, that people just got lazy with naming things, and shoved everything they didn't feel like naming into the "other" category.

I haven't taken pictures in a long time. not that I took a very wide range of photos anyway. ah well. that doesn't mean I don't value the ones I do take. Its fun, and I do it when I feel like it and thats just fine with me. zen. thoughts, unnamed feelings.

wow. I guess I'm not done after all. in going to find my mood emoticon on deviantart, I chanced across, ta-da!! neglect! now thats not how I would say I'm feeling right now, but as sub-categories in that little feeling, I found quite a few which sum up the day for me:
Alienated
Defeated
isolated
insecure.
now, thats not exactly all right now what I'm feeling, but its all come up at least once today. and now, just a twinge of loneliness. But that's ok, I can deal with that, and be the bigger person. Can't I?

for you love, I'd do just about anything.

otherwise, I had a pretty good day.